What I really really.. WANT

Ha ha ha ha ha 
Yo, I'll tell you what I want, what I really, really want
So tell me what you want, what you really, really want
I'll tell you what I want, what I really, really want
So tell me what you want, what you really, really want
I wanna, (ha) I wanna, (ha) I wanna, (ha) I wanna, (ha)
I wanna really, really, really wanna .. - Spice Girls Worship Band?

note: Just so you don't worry more about me I do know the above song lyrics are neither deep, or a worship song with a catchy tune. 

I am at a crossroads of sorts in my life.  Looking for how to segue into the semi-retirment years of my life, as my wife and I are settling into the stage in our lives.  So in discussing our future the phrase "what I really want" seemed to come up often.. and my caffeinated brain 'logically' jumped into the lyrics from the 1996 song 'Wannabe' by the Spice Girls. Not  that I was a fan of the Spice Girls, but it was a catchy tune.

But I also know it is OK to talk to God about what I want what I really want because He cares about what I want what I really really want. So I tell Him what I want what I really really want.

Come and hear, all you who fear God, and I will tell what he has done for my soul.
I cried to him with my mouth, and high praise was on my tongue.
If I had cherished iniquity in my heart, the Lord would not have listened.
But truly God has listened; he has attended to the voice of my prayer.
Blessed be God, because he has not rejected my prayer
or removed his steadfast love from me! -- Psalm 66:16-20 (ESV)

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Our God is better than any Genie in a Lamp where our every wish/prayer is granted. Our God is our personal loving Heavenly Father hears our cry and desires what is best for each of us.  

So to be clear I can count on God wanting his best for me, and even better yet He KNOWS what is best for me.  Not so many years ago we were house shopping and made offers on three homes but each time the offer of another potential buyer was chosen.  The last offer we were the runner up to the buyer who was chosen.  I guess we were like the Miss Congeniality of home buyers.. and were still disappointed.

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But after this moment (ok, it was a half a day) of disappointment.  We turned back to trusting God in this process an actually excited about it realizing God really wants what He really really wants is our best.  We now live in a home that is close to our kids and grandkids and we feel God's care and blessing in this home.

​I believe He is personally involved with our lives and this home buying process.  This is what I believe and where my hope is.
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No matter if you are buying a home, single and looking for Mr or Mrs Right, choosing a career path, or the church you attend I pray you put your trust in the God who loves you.  He is not indifferent, he is not detached.  So pray to God and tell Him what you want.

​Psalm 139:7-8 I can never escape from your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence! If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the grave, you are there.

So one last time.. Tell God what you want, what you really really want.. and seek His will.  The best is yet to come.

Jeff (really really wanting a donut right now) Larson

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