Category: Repentance

6/12/2020

Breaking Bad.. Again (rr)

Breaking Bad was the hit TV show on AMC a few years back where unassuming high school chemistry teacher and family man Walter White evolves over 5 seasons into someone truly bad.

Maybe.. Not since God tossed Satan out of Heaven has there been a comparable BREAKING BAD moment.

Walter White's life was a slippery slope of compromise, and his white (no pun intended) lies evolved into massive cover-ups. Walter White changes over these few years into a ruthless big time meth producer responsible for countless murders, and in the end, he dies alone, his family is destroyed, and the wake of his truly bad choices on those around him was far reaching for both innocent and guilty. Even those who survived DID NOT live happily ever after but were truly Badly Broken.

note: For those of you contemplating binge watching Breaking Bad on Netflix please disregard the previous paragraph. MY BAD

Ok, so far there are three obvious lessons learned
1. Don't cook Meth,
2. Don't Murder, and
3. Don't trust criminals to keep secrets.

But Breaking Bad is actually the story of mankind and from the very beginning it seems to be BAD is what we do. Since the very beginning our sins great and small, and our attempts to cover them up is the common plot line for lives we live.

EVEN OUR BIBLES are filled with Breaking Bad moments of literally biblical proportions.

Adam & Eve sinned, then tried to play the Blame Game with God.
Moses .. After BREAKING BADly the Ten Commmandments he attempts to repair with duct tape.
King Solomon was the wise king of Israel but became compromised by his self-endulging ways and started collecting wives (700+ of them) like other people collect stamps
Judas betrayed Jesus for 30 pieces of silver, and it turned out to be his price of INFAMY.

Then let's fast forward to a few more contemporary Breaking Bad paths we travel today..

Maybe a problem with drink while you hide the bottles.
Maybe an attraction to someone other than your spouse.
Maybe financial choices (credit cards, and purchases) that you have dug a hole that cannot be climbed out of with any ladder you purchased with your maxed out Home Depot credit card.
Maybe the subtle slow slide of TV and/or the internet cluttering our minds with compromise that is just a click a way. This 24/7 stimulation, and manipulation of will, addiction to desires, the wasting of time, is turning our brains to mush.

Comfort and Hope for your BB Moments..
But no matter your flavor of Breaking Bad there are so many great scripture truths of comfort and perspective. Here are two.

1 Cor 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.

Phil 4:8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy think about such things.

AND if/when we fall.. know the grace of our Heavenly Father is perfect. No matter how great or small your prodigal son or daughter moment.

Let's agree to fix our minds on the Will of God, not our own. Let' agree to seek His voice, and not the voices in this world. I pray God blesses His people with repentant and obedient hearts. Lord your will, not my will be done.

May God bless each of you on your journey.

Jeff (not so bad) Larson

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3/13/2020

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Your Will.. My Will

Our Father who is in Heaven, GREAT is your name.. Your kingdom come, your WILL be done ON EARTH as it is in Heaven.

As many of you know this is the start of the Lord's Prayer (Mt 6:9-13), and is what I believe God is impressing on me today.

Your Will on Earth? So how is that working out?

I turn on the evening news (SHOW) I doubt I hear mention of God or His will.
In Washington DC there is a lot of MY WILL BE DONE attitudes legislated in their 'swampy' ways, but nary a mention of God or His will.
So I check out Twitter (I should know better) and find the same world as in the news where chaos is king.
So I filter down to tweets by 'Christians' and while there are very good views, scriptures and inspiring quotes shared with the hope of Jesus love..I still find chaos.

Christian Tweeters are all quoting the same Bible and while there are honest differences, tweets tend to be divisive as tweeters congregate in their own denominational or theological camps/gangs?.

With all the tension I am looking for an MMA pay-per view event with Catholics v Protestants to determine once and for all.. who really is saved? It can't be the both.. can it? I mean, one of the two must be on the fast track to HELL. Or will there be a Pro(testant)-Wrestling match with a high flying Beth Moore coming off the top rope attempting to way-lay John MacCarther.

kidding, I think.

But while I DO LIKE TO DIGRESS.. let us now return to the LORD'S PRAYER. God your will be done on Earth.. starting with me.

Through my life (I am 62 now) I have prayed "Lord show me your will for my life." many times. At times regarding big decisions and that is a good always to seek the Lord and His will, but I am just recently realizing often the prayer"what is your will for my life?" is me-centric. Prayers focusing on the right job, house, finding Mrs. Right/Larson, or even a car purchase.

Looking back I wish I could have heard an audible voice from Heaven telling me if I was close. :)

God could be heard from the Heavens with the words.. "Warmer, warmer.. hmmm.. colder, colder.. now you are FREEZING. Which I literally now realize is maybe how I ended up in Minnesota. Get it? colder, colder freezing.

ANYWAYS..

Truth is (insert light bulb moment for me here) The prayer "Lord what is your will for my life?" should be more specifically.. "Lord how can I serve you today, show me what I can do for your kingdom." "How can I be that part in the Lord's Prayer helping God's Will be Done.

Again, I swear I am just this week realizing the extent of this truth. I could cry over my 62 years wandering with one foot planted firmly in the wilderness and the other foot only tip toeing into the promised land much like the Children of Israel wandered for 40 years before crossing the Jordan.

But I console myself with.. I am a pretty good guy. I have lived a life faithful to God (most of the time) I attend church every week (most of the time), and I am not the type of sinner you will find someday featured in a scandal on the evening news, or the topic of a murder mystery on Dateline.

Most of my sins lie most everyone fly 'mostly' under the radar. Then again much of my serving God flies under the radar too. Not in the humble way, but in a underachieving way.

An honest tombstone for me might read..
'Here lies Jeff.. he loved God, but also loved himself a bit too much.'

Not a catchy tombstone eulogy I must admit.

Even this little Back Pew Ministry.. I am blessed to be used by God in a way that He uniquely wired me. And the feedback I receive is most always positive.. but then even in my world of cartoons I can take my eyes off of humbly being used by God in this small way to praying for God to bless The Back Pew into being.. The FarSide, or Calvin & Hobbes of Christian cartoons, complete with a modest OR.. substantial income "SHOW ME THE MONEY!"

But in recent months I have been diving deeper into my Bible, and reading challenging Christian books and points of view via sermons on Youtube or other streaming apps. And my selection of music is mostly worship music replacing my large classic rock playlist.

These recent months pursuing God deeper have not resulted in an exorcism of my old self, but it has become both a convicting and inspiring journey where today my prayer is .. "Lord what is your will for my life going forward? How can I serve you? Lord help me NOT to bury my talents in the sand, but instead do my part so YOUR will is done on Earth as it is in Heaven. AMEN."

I write this hoping it does not take any of you 62 years to figure out God's will for you is to serve Him. But if it does, 62 is not too late. Love God, Serve God where your will is God's will.

May God bless you all in this journey of discovering who you are intended to be in God's Plan and for his Kingdom on Earth.

Amen

Jeff (slow learner) Larson -->

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11/7/2019

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Those Pesky 'Sorry-Buts' (rr)

Note of Clarification
The following blog commentary is about the little word 'BUT' ..but.. it is not to be confused with the word 'BUTT' (aka bottom.. aka buttocks, ) which always makes Minions laugh.

I recently read a quote by Tim Keller on Twitter.. 'Repentance is crucial for renewal and restoration', and full disclosure honesty is required for true repentance.

Very true, BUT it is often easier to say "I am sorry, BUT.." then insert my favorite excuse/rationalization of what I am supposedly sorry for. Here are a few I am sorry BUTs.

I am sorry I lost my temper, BUT that jerk in the car next too me honked his horn at me while I was texting my mom. He had it coming when I flipped him off and shared my four letter vocabulary.
I am sorry I am 15 minutes late to work today, BUT the coffee line was long at the Starbucks drive through window.
Yes Mr. Bill collector, technically speaking I did not pay my electric bill on time, BUT I thought my wife took care of it. She said she would.
I know those two donuts were not on my diet BUT I did not want them to go to waste. .. I want them to go to my waist.
I want to give more to the church, BUT I just purchased a new I-Phone 50! and a new 120" HD TV to follow Joel Osteen on.
Yes officer I know you stopped me for speeding, BUT I think my speedometer maybe needs calibration or something.

Next let me share a couple gender specific 'sorry but' prayers.

As a man I can simply repeat the Man Prayer from Red Green.. "sorry I'm a man (and a slob), but.. I can do better, if I have to, AMEN."
In contrast the Woman's Prayer tends to be more compassionate.. or maybe just passionate, as she concludes "sorry I am so upset.. but.. he is driving her nuts! JUST LOOK AT HIM!"

(see cartoon on the right)

Hmmm, maybe we should raise the bar and strive to do better than either of the above man, or woman's prayers.

Back to Tim Keller's words of wisdom. 'Repentance is crucial for renewal and restoration', and full disclosure honesty is required for true repentance. Not much wiggle room for any sorry buts.

BUT.. Hey I am a pretty good guy. I go to church, love my wife and stay out of trouble.

But who am I fooling? Not God. He knows my secret doubts, rage, anxiety, envy, mumbled profanities, and other more quiet rebellions against what I know is right in my heart. I have too often compromised time, resources, and talents that were truly a gift from God. This does not include bigger sins (ie alcohol) that almost killed me. For all these and more I am sorry.. no buts.

Mark me down as a work in progress.

What would be possible if we all were truly repentant and inspired by the love of God? It could be a revival this fallen world needs.. like.. NOW!

May God bless each of you on your spiritual journey, where you are blessed and used by God in ways that are beyond your dreams. My our hearts be repentant, and open to receive the promise of God's Grace.

Jeff (no buts about it) Larson

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