Forgiven and Forgiving?

Think about it.. Our Heavenly Father, creator of Heavens  and  Earth is  our  personal God, and He forgives our sins and  remembers them no more. We are Forgiven, and He is Forgiving.  I like how this whole forgiven thing works out for me.

Now I  am pretty forgiving kinda guy when it comes to family member, and my friends. I even forgive my dog.. most of the  time. BUT THEN as obvious as a rogue adult acne is on my 60 year old nose is the truth, I AM NOT always so forgiving for those who wrong  me and are not in my inner circle of  friends... especially those who don't want forgiveness, and/or don't even like me.  DON'T LIKE ME? I am aghast! 

​Truth be told I have one particular incident that I  have a hard time letting go.. as  my employer let me go.

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It was January 2018 when I  was  working  in a job that I did  not enjoy, and I did not appreciate or respect my manager and  supervisor.  So much was wrong at this company (IMO), with ongoing management and respect issues all the way up to the day I  was  terminated. 

Well let's just I was more than a  bit indignant about being let go.  My disdain for my former employer peaked to the point where when I was letting my mind spin until (embarrassing to admit) I  would  imagine a paraphrase of Psalms for my former employer.  No not the Psalms 23 kind of Psalms, though I  thought my existence was  in the Valley of  the Shadow of my former employer.  Instead.  More of a Psalms 18:37-42. (please insert 'former employer' everywhere this  Psalm  refers to enemy)
37 I pursued my enemies and overtook them; I did not turn back till they were destroyed.
38 I crushed them so that they could not rise; they fell beneath my feet. 39 You armed me with strength for battle; you humbled my adversaries before me. 40 You made my enemies turn their backs in flight, and I destroyed my foes. 41 They cried for help, but there was no one to save them. --- to the Lord, but he did not answer. 42 I beat them as fine as windblown dust; I trampled them like mud in the streets.

Ok,  I exaggerate  a bit, but I know I was far from forgiving about my termination. I  needed to let it go, and truly forgive. No I don't get to destroy them, beat them into fine dust, or trample them.  I  mean good grief I  lost  a job ( I did not like), they did not raid and pillage my townhome.

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So  the moral of the  story is.. The older I get, the more lessons I get to learn.  Lucky me! Forgiven by God is  priceless, and forgiving of others pretty close to priceless too. I don't know if  I can completely realize forgivness without being forgiving too.  Anger and indignation (righteous or not) does not look pretty on any of  us, especially those of us who have been forgiven much.

May God bless each of you today with the realization of God's Grace and forgivness, and fill your hearts with forgiveness for others.

Blessings

​Jeff (praying 'good' Psalms at ya) Larson

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